I am in a major blue funk meltdown mode, which was maybe the objective of THE GAME, I dunno.  But basically I have encountered on almost any discussion/social/news forum board I go to these roving bands of thugs and their cohorts who, it appears to me, only get up in the morning to see who they can "screw" with next.

The compelling example today is my "chat" if you can call what the gladiators/christians/lions did with each other "chatting" on a news forum of a group of people which has its allotted number of losers (the people who don't seem sincere or reasonable) but then there are others who appear for all intents and purposes to be sane, moral, "normal" (whatever that may be) people who you would hope would balance out the jackals.

Let me say the specifics of this weekend and I think you might understand:

I recently saw this horribly disturbing article about an event last week in the Mid-East.  More specifically: The Taliban Executed/Hung a 7-yr. old boy on accusations of spying but I believe it was to make an example out of people (his grandfather) who don't cooperate.  The article was bad enough on its own but then I started thinking about it as real people, not just some horrible vague idea of someone "over there".  Every little boy and/or girl (even adults) that I can think of would have been so scared as to be unable to walk, to be crying surely for his mother, for someone to help stop this nightmare.  And  I don't and can't comprehend what kind of mentality it takes for an adult to take that screaming child and drag and/or carry him to be hung in public like some kind of side show circus act.

The idea of this monstrous and hideously cruel act preys more on my mind as time goes by and even moreso when I contemplate the unconscionable, imo, actions of some of the board/class buffoons.  It all deteriorated rapidly and basically ended with the primary cretin/bully telling me to either kill myself or else someone might do it for me and further that the article was the funniest thing they ever read.

Which made me sick and blew my mind.  I know these people can be cold but COME ON?  Then to make matters worse when I reported him to the newspaper (and I know it sounds crazy and you will say there has got to be more to it but trust me I got nothing to gain by lying I NEED to understand) banned me and left everyone of those jerks happily on their way to whatever mayhem is next on their list.  They were having a ball with the whole thing.

Similar circumstances on complaint sites about banks, etc., people rip into you like cannibals accusing you of being a deadbeat drain on society when you are talking about the bank's dirty tricks.  Any website I've gone to exhibits, sooner or later, some moreso than others, this same type of absolutely (to me) unacceptable behavior.

What in the world gets into people have they nothing better to do?  I wonder if its just me or does this happen to others?  Basically, I consider it bullying, like you hear about with kids but because its adults the attitude seems to be "oh well" obviously since I rocked the boat and got banned.  But I'll tell you I squeal loud and long if I see this happening to someone else because if you ask me thats what perpetuates it, everyone witnessing it is just so glad they aren't the one getting a new one ripped that they join in the fun.

I have been depressed, absolutely miserable, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE ASHAMED, on one hand, and on the other I feel outraged and I would really like to talk to someone at this newspaper for one to tell them they got the last dime of mine they will ever see and also just to ask them what kind of morals this newspaper has?  Its not adult behavior and it only makes it worse when it goes from the initial bully to his buddies to the silent onlookers and then to the "host" in this case the newspaper.

People say "well its their ball field and they can do what they want" and maybe so but i"m not talking about legal I'm talking about morality.

This makes me want to barricade myself inside my home, lock the doors and windows and just leave society behind.  I guess I'm taking a chance here too and lemme tell you, if you are one of those and you are looking for a weak victim, right now I am because I'm just about at the end of my patience and my rope and my tolerance for this stuff.  It makes me want to scream and throw things and now I sound like the nut.

Help me somebody please make sense, if there is any, of this boorish, rude, socially objectionable and heartless behavior.  I really really need to know.