Molly and Arthur, I find both your answers interesting. However, I don't feel that it completely solves my problems
Let me elaborate a bit. I think that the `call' that Arthur mentioned is what brings us to do science at the first place. We pick what we view as a question that is both interesting, fundamental, and irritating (in the sense, that we know that it has to be solved) and then do our best to attack it. We read other people's works, we borrow tools from other areas, we think hard about it etc. Then, sometimes, we get some results in the way of the big question, we open new ways of attacking the problem, we connect it to problems in other areas and all the other things that are usually called good science. What bothers me these days is that when engaged in research we may be thinking that we are doing a good and fundamental work, but at the end we see that the rock didn't move. We just peeled some dirt off it (which is ok, as it let people see other aspects of the rock), but we did not get any inch closer to solving the big problem. At the process we become better of course. We master something, we are experts, we become leaders and all those nice words, but eventually, this is nothing.
Well, certainly this is not `nothing', so what do I mean? I think that I am after more than just this kind of an advance. Maybe I want something that will survive time. It is probably too much to ask for, but I can't imagine working on a problem that at the end, even if I solve it, will not mean much in, say, 50 years. I am not saying that you only have to publish immortal works, but rather that immortal problems should always be your goal. But this is difficult! And as I said in my first post, you start working on this immortal problem and you end up working on some problem that is so remote but still difficult. Then a community evolves around this remote problem and before you know it your goals changed and you are working on an unimportant niche. How can we make sure that this does not happen to us? (B.t.w., this reminds me of Coetzee's book disgrace - if I remember correctly, the main figure starts by wanting to write an opera but ends up writing a piece for banjo... ).
I cannot argue with the saying that these things only happen to the mediocre scientists and not to the brilliant ones, or that we don't see it yet but one day the greatness of our work will be revealed, but I still find this an unsatisfactory answer. Maybe one way of making sure that we don't end there is to constantly ask ourselves - "are we doing good science?"...
B.t.w., Molly, I am also not sure that I agree with you last sentence. Why do you think so, I don't remember reading anything about this. I do think that breakthroughs usually happens when one deeply understands, or actually recognizes, a blind spot in a theory, but I am not sure that they way to do good science is to `work on yourself'.
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