Since turning thirty this year something amazing has happened. I can't quite explain it, but I'm somewhat exhilarated.

I feel that on one hand I've come into my abilities in a way I hadn't before. Not that things are easier exactly, but they are somehow more possible. And on the other, for lack of a better description, I take a basic pleasure in participating in the world, which I didn't always feel a part of before.

I don't have any idea of it's a milestone in the same way for others -- if this is my own unique experience or simply a great secret which I hadn't thought to expect until it arrived.