Right,
but so for example let’s take an actor. Also, no one exactly gets hurt, but they
act as a certain character, and also for your stories, you need to act as
a certain character, for example the child murderer in your story After the end. It still has, I think,
some effect, even if you know that no one really gets hurt.
Well, you know I think it has an
effect, but it’s actually a kind of positive one, because I think that, at
least for a long period of my life, I lived under a complete suppression, I
didn’t even acknowledge those urges. But let’s say when now I go with my kid to
a park, and another kid pushes him, and I say to him “Hey little kiddie, you’re
supposed to play nice,” then the fact that I don’t beat the shit out of this
little kid has to do with the fact that I write. Because before that, I would
just have hemorrhoids instead. So I think it actually kind of creates an
emotional connection.
I don’t know, I bet for actors it
might be difficult to make this distinction, between the real world and the
fictional one. I know that for let’s say some actors, like Daniel Day-Lewis,
that when they’re out of the set they still act in character. But with
me, I really think that if I sit in front of you, I can really acknowledge the
fact that I feel like punching you, or kissing you, but at the same time, I can
distinguish this is the real world; I want to do it, but I won’t do it because
you don’t deserve a punch (or a kiss).
So unlike an actor who speaks in an
accent, realizing my character just means that there is some sort of mute
switch, or off switch, which is all the time there, and when I write I exercise
it, and when I don’t write I just sort of feel it or think it.